Dear 16 year old me…

After flicking through old photos recently I came to the realisation that it has been 8 years since I was 16. Time really has flown by! I remember my final year at secondary school like it was yesterday. I am probably one of the few people that actually miss it! After recently being overwhelmed with my busy adult life I thought it would be interesting to look back 8 years. If I could go back in time I’d look at life extremely differently and I’d definitely appreciate it a hell of a lot more. Here are three things I wish I could have told 16 year old me.

#1 – Appreciate – At 16 I didn’t really   appreciate the people I had around me as much as I should have. At school I saw my friends every  day without fail and didn’t think twice about it. Now to get myself and my five other close school friends in the same room at the same time is almost impossible. I used to struggle to understand why people a little older than me didn’t have much time to spend with friends and now I completely get it. I would tell myself to appreciate the time I had with friends on a regular basis as spending quality time with them now is sometimes near impossible when you have friends living on the other side of the world! 

#2 Be an individual – When I was 16 and at school I did follow the crowd sometimes by trying to fit in with certain trends etc. I would say I wasn’t too bad however I definitely think it’s important to stay true to yourself. Looking back now I would tell myself to not try and conform to anything and stick to being me because years later it really won’t matter! 

#3 – Enjoy it! – When I was growing up I used to stress (well I still worry and stress!) about every little detail. I would tell myself not to panic about stupid things and actually enjoy growing up. I do actually miss school because it was a lot more carefree than I realised at the time and I wish I could go back and enjoy it more. I was in such a hurry to grow up and I’d do anything to go back and have a nice 9-3 day, see my friends 5 days a week and not have bills to pay! 

16 year old me and my friends! (2 of which are still two of my best friends today – and are both in different countries right now!) 

Abs are made in the kitchen…

It’s that time of year again… Once the sun makes a few appearances so does the instagram spam of in progress bikini bodies and lush swimwear! For once in my life I actually have no holidays planned however I always feel the pressure to get into shape at this time of year (I never do though haha). 

However I do think it’s very important to do things the healthy way. I have only ever lost weight through a way which isn’t healthy such as a fad diet, eating next to nothing or through stress and upset but this is not the right way at all! It is important to get the right balance. There is no quick fix as much as we’d all like one! 

With the help of insta celebrities such as Clean Eating Alice and Tally Rye setting positive examples it is nice to see a healthy way of living is being displayed on social media rather than images of stick thin girls! 

Therefore I definitely think abs are made in the kitchen and it isn’t as bad as it sounds. I think most of us associate healthy eating with a plate full of salad leaves but it’s not like that at all. I definitely need to stop binging on chocolate eggs and make some colourful choices for summer! 

How do you like your eggs in the mornin…

Yeah that song is now in my head too! Anyway.. I thought I’d post something a little happier than the previous post! Anyone that knows me knows I love food and I’m always hungry! My absolute favourite thing to do is to go out for breakfast and as you can probably tell eggs are my go to choice! Although I’m not too boring and I do mix it up! I thought I’d share my top 2 breakfast places and my favourite picks! 

#1 Bills

Bills is my ultimate go to breakfast place (and most of my friends!)… I prefer breakfast here to lunch or dinner! My go to was always scrambled egg and bacon on toast but now my new favourite is acavado, bacon and eggs on toast (this is the photo on the blog post). It is literally amazing! 

#2 Driftwood 

This little cafe is located in Emsworth which isn’t too far from me. It is the cutest place and is very near to the nicest view. I often go here on a nice sunny morning so I can have poached eggs on toast before a cute walk by the water! 

So yeah.. foodies please hit me up with suggestions! 

It’s okay not to be okay

Firstly, the reason for the picture for this blog is me looking really excitable and happy is to show that a photo can hide a million things. Whilst somebody can look as happy as Larry.. you never know what is going on behind the smile. 

When this photo was taken of me, I was anything but happy. Yeah I was having an amazing trip don’t get me wrong… but I wasn’t okay. And do you know what… It is okay not to be okay all the time. You wouldn’t be human if you were happy 24/7. Don’t let this defeat you or make you think any less of yourself. 

My top three tips for coping with this are:

#1 – Talk to your friends 

This is what friends are for. Sometimes you just need to let it all out to someone that has your back. In my case, my friends tell me it how it is and they don’t sugar coat anything. However talking to them always helps me when I’m not feeling okay as they make me realise #1 this is normal #2 that they are there for me regardless.

#2 Listen to music

Music is my ultimate therapy in life and it really helps. Sometimes I just blast out the happiest music and it really helps to lift my mood. 

#3 Keep busy

Whether it’s going for a walk, seeing a friend or exercising, this is the best way to keep your mind off things. When you aren’t feeling okay, just take some time out and do something which will distract you for a little while. This is one of my main coping mechanisms hence why I am never free. I pack up my schedule probably too much! This really helps me distract myself for a little bit when things are a little tough.

When in doubt… travel 

Travel is without a doubt the best education. If I could travel all day everyday I 100% would. I am the type of person who will book a flight a couple of days before I am due to leave. However I would not have it any other way. I absolutely love exploring and being sponteous! I recently travelled to New Zealand as I have friends travelling and it was the most amazing trip! I haven’t laughed so hard in so long and I was really able to find myself. I could not recommend it enough! I will definitely be going back! So please.. if you have any spare time/money.. go and explore. Whether it’s to the other side of the world or to somewhere closer to home, it is definitely worth it! 🌎

Don’t believe everything you think…

I love posting about travel or lifestyle etc but I thought I’d take the time to blog about something a little more serious in order to raise awareness. Anxiety is a huge deal and something that not many people understand. Unless you go through it or experience it firsthand, you probably don’t understand how much it can impact someone’s life. This is something that has taken a lot of courage for me to not only admit, but to share and to feel comfortable talking about rather than embarrassed. 

It is natural to worry or feel anxious but for it to completely take over is not okay. Anxiety is something that had not only consumed me but changed me into a person I didn’t even recognise. It is something I wasn’t very familiar and I didn’t understand the seriousness of it at all. It intensifies situations in my mind and causes me to act worried, panicked and irrational. It had completely consumed me and has changed me from the happy, outgoing person I was. However it does not define you. I know from my personal perspective that this isn’t me and not who I am, I am just consumed by something I couldn’t control and try to fix everything when I need to fix myself. You can’t fix it, but you can control it. Through suffering with this I have lost people very important to me because I couldn’t control it and acted completely out of character because I was angry at the situations I had created because anxiety made me want to fix things I couldn’t fix. I did things I wouldn’t usually do and hurt people in the process. This was the wake up call I needed to make a change.

The whole point of this post is to share my story in order for anyone going through the same or similar.. that it will be okay. You know it’s not you and the mistakes you make don’t define you. Don’t believe everything you think! Anxiety makes things worse. I am embarrassed of the way I’ve acted over the past year the people closest to me know that’s not me and if you are going through it too, you’ll know. I just need to remember that these mistakes made through anxiety don’t define me as a person and I will learn from this. 

Do not be afraid to talk about it or admit that you are going through it. A close friend sent me this and it really helped.

🔥🔥 everyone makes mistakes. Anxiety fuelling it makes it worse but it does get better! I am running the Surrey 5k and tough mudder in order to raise money for anxiety UK and to raise awareness and to support others going through the same. It’s a work in progress but things do get better! 

Here’s to another year…

Well 2017 is here and it’s safe to say 2016 hasn’t been my year but judging by the multiple Facebook, Twitter and Instagram posts.. it’s been tough on a lot of people. I think it is important not to dwell on the past and take away the positives with you and make the best out of every situation. This year I’ve lost people who were important but I’ve also gained friendships that I’m looking forward to continuing. Similarly I can’t wait to spend time with the people that have made this year special. There is absolutely no point looking at the negatives. Look at this year as a book. Today is the first page of 365… so write a good one. The past cannot be changed but the future can. Make this year the year you’ve always wanted. I am ready to work towards my goals and make not only the people that care about me, but myself proud. Here are my top 3 tips for 2017.

#1 – Do things that make YOU happy

Don’t listen to anyone else. You know you better than anyone. Do what YOU want to do this year. Whether it’s to travel or to conquer a personal goal. Work towards what you want and fight for what makes you happy. Make 2017 your year.

#2 – Be positive  

Evaluate the people and things around you. Stay positive and try to see the good in every situation.

#3 – Be spontaneous 

Exactly as I’ve just said. Be spontaneous. Book a trip 24 hours before you go, travel to places you’ve been too scared to go to. You only have one life, make it exciting.

Some of my favourite memories from 2016

Too old?

I know what you are thinking.. I’m only 23 and that really isn’t old at all! It is actually pretty young (and I have my whole life ahead of me as my mum would say). However, I feel like I’m running out of time!? Last year I made the decision to go to university (second time lucky I hope) and study for a degree in Business and Marketing. A lot of the students on my course are a good three or four years younger than me and seem to have it all planned out! Whilst I frantically try and search for a summer internship, I feel like I won’t get all the opportunties as everyone younger as I am unable to do a placement year (this is where a lot of students get offered jobs too). However, I keep having to tell myself that I AM NOT TOO OLD and it isn’t an age thing. It’s whether you have the motivation and drive! I may not have much experience (yet) and am not able to have a year working for an established company, however I am a firm believer in being able to achieve anything you want if you work hard. I really need to work hard, at university and with experience within the sector (and hopefully a marketing internship next summer!) in order to make my dreams a reality! After attending a careers fair today and talking to people from Asos, Not On The Highstreet, IBM and many more I am more determined than ever. If anyone is in the same position as me and sometimes doesn’t feel like they are getting anywhere.. please put your positive pants on (another thing my mum would say!) and work for what you want. That’s my plan.

My business girls 

Winter is coming!

Sorry I couldn’t help the predictable blog title. I don’t even watch Game of Thrones but I couldn’t help myself! Oops! Anyway… winter is definitely on it’s way. It really is getting a little cold now and I am definitely not ready for this chilly weather just yet! However, I love the opportunity to chill in bed with hot chocolate and Netflix! Despite all this cosy winter talk…the point of this blog post is to show you my top 3 favourite winter items that you should definitely invest in this season!

This Asos mermaid blanket (£32) is one of my favourite items on asos at the minute. If, like me, you have grown up watching The Little Mermaid and love a cosy blanket.. this is perfect.

If the winter months turn you into a hot drink addict (I literally drink about ten cups of green tea a day right now!) then this cute Not On The Highstreet mug is perfect (£14.95). It is also a great Christmas gift too.

I love a good scarf and I have been trying to find the perfect one for this winter. Miss Selfridge (I am probably biased because Miss Selfridge are a firm favourite of mine anyway!) have a great selection. This grey knit ribbed scarf for £16 is one of my favourites. It is super cosy and will also complement your outfit. 

Summer blues

Everyone has the Monday morning dreading feeling after a weekend off… But after a whole three and a half months off this feeling is so so so much worse today! Going back to work after a holiday or even a weekend is hard enough, right? So after having all the time in the world (whilst still working part-time) over the past few months, it is FINALLY time to go back to university. Although I am so excited to see my friends and to have something to work on (I know I’ll be regretting saying this in a months time!), I am not sure how I’ll cope on the first Monday back! The two hour commute four days a week plus working at ridiculous o’clock alongside studying doesn’t sound appealing at all right now but it definitely makes me appreciate the summer I’ve had. Anyone that knows me will know I can’t sit still and I’m pretty spontaneous, therefore I’ve been non stop all summer. I was lucky enough to visit Rome in July and Tenerife in September as well as catching up with friends. However I now definitely have a severe case of summer blues! I thought I just had holiday blues, but nope… I just want summer back!

IMG_2886.JPG(Rome was amazing)

The best way to beat these blues in my opinion is to have something to look forward to! Having plans, even as little as meeting friends or a day doing something fun always gets me through a busy week! I can’t wait to plan more trips and spontaneous adventures! Any ideas!?